How…did this happen? I can believe that it’s been one year, maybe two max, but three?! :0
Three years ago today, you were born after 18 hours of labor. I remember the feeling of when you were handed to me.. it was through my legs, and the first part I held of you were your ribs. Your tiny ribs. You were sooo small. Your face was swollen but we didn’t know that so we thought you looked kinda funny and we couldn’t tell who you looked like.
Over the next year, you changed and developed so much each day. You first said “umma” a bunch of times at 3 months to the day. You first crawled a day before 5 months. You signed “milk” with your hand at.. 6 ish? months.. You just progressed so quickly and mightily. I could see the determination in you from such a young age. You really have willed things into reality, starting with the first time you supported your head up on your own. That same determination and strong will is even clearer today at 3.
We’re not together today. Mom and dad are in another state on a secret assignment. (Of course it’s not a secret to you – we told you for many weeks leading up to now and you know exactly where we are and what we’re doing. But we’ve not publicly shared about this just yet.) I’m really sad that I missed the nearly last week of you being 2, my favorite age thus far. You were the greatest two year old I’ve known, and I’m so excited to witness 3 b/c I know you’re just gonna impress us even more, though tbh I’m pretty sad. π¦ Each day, I feel your independence grow, and I know that before I know it, you are going to be out of the house. T__T I hope that while you are here with me, we make the most of it, and build a solid, solid relationship of trust and love.
Two was spent mostly in your grandparents’ home, with the pandemic ongoing. You went from a decent speaker to a full-on orator, telling entire stories and explaining situations. You are a great conversationalist and your responses sound like an adult / grandparent. Example: “Me (in Korean): wow, there are a lot of ducks here even though it’s really cold!; You: “Geuruhgae (I know right??)” You pick up a lot of grandparent-like sayings from GM & GP I guess. Haha.
I left my job in September, so we got a nice 7.5 week excursion to LA and Korea, where I saw you truly enjoy yourself and all the love/attention from family. You were a champ for the travels. You still think back fondly on Korea and you ask if we can fly there again soon. You pray for our Korea family members to be safe and “not die.” You say how much you miss everyone and love looking at pics/vids of our time there.
Over the past year, you also learned how to ride a scooter, a trike, a bike with training wheels, and how to drive those small cars / vehicles. We were shocked when you automatically knew how to control a bumper car that had a front-back joystick on one side and a left-right joystick on the other. You also learned how to play basic video games (just walking around, jumping n stuff) like Animal Crossing and Nom Nom Galaxy. Most dope-ly, you busted out your crazy MJ-like dance moves. Like whoa. O__O You are just born with rhythm and born to dance. Your freestyle moves are at the professional level!! And you can also follow choreo like Zumba. You memorize the moves and songs – Metela Sacala is your best.
You also taught yourself (rather recently) how to somersault and showed us one on videochat yesterday. We’re going to put you in gymnastics b/c you seem v interested. In the winter, I took you to the Flick Park Ice Rink to try skating for the first time. You tiny bit got the hang of it but then you had to pee so we left. Haha :p you’re pretty great at basketball and throw jump shots (and make a lot of them)! Many people have expressed to us how athletic you are and I agree, you’re like a little Sporty Spice!
In Korea, you learned that my milk is not really sour (which you believed from your 2nd bday up until October-ish). So now we’re back to nursing, but with my milk dried up… so just comfort nursing. Maybe you’ll stop though since we’ll have been apart for 1-2 weeks. We’ll see. You have expressed that you would share me/your milk with any little siblings (as well as all your toys, your house, your everything ^^). You are so affectionate, loving, touchy, and sweet. You think ahead and try to take care of those around you (remove obstacles in the way for little Ellie, feed your friends, etc.).
You love to pray and say some beautiful, profound things about God and Jesus. You have so much empathy.. you cried when I told you about homelessness. You have also cried when I’ve told you of tragedies that have happened. You are just so thoughtful and such an empath! I am so touched by your big heart. Thank you. (I’ve recorded a lot of your prayers and our night time conversations on voice notes so you can ask me about them later.)
You are also SO affirming and encouraging. You are constantly telling me how beautiful I am, how smart I am, how skinny I am (LOL “nuhmoo nalshinhae” – I think b/c of the 3 Bears in a House song), how much you love me, how I’m the best, how I’m your best friend, and how I’m mushissuh (cool/impressive). I love spending our time together, and while some days feel so long, I’m so glad I’ve been getting to spend all of the past 6+ months with you full-time.
And I’ve told you this so many times, but it’s worth repeating. When we found out I was pregnant with a girl, my mom told me, “God is giving you a daughter b/c he knows just what you need.” And boy was she right! Or girl was she right! :p He definitely knew just what I needed, or who I needed — You.
You have helped me through my grief with losing my mom, through the transition from full-time working parent to full-time parent at home, through my tiffs and full-on fights with my MIL (heh :’p), through all the grief of 2020 and 2021.. just everything. And you’ve made me laugh so much and have filled my heart so much that it feels like it’s going to burst.
So Taylor girl, boraya, princess, baby, aegi, cutie patootie, happy third birthday. We love you so much.